I questioned God. 07/17/2019

Today I questioned God,

It was the hardest moment in my spiritual life and my personal life, as they are now one because I am a born again Christian.

I wondered how I asked how, I thought: How are these animals being abused and taken from their homelands.

It was as if I stripped off my spiritual clothes and became of full flesh, tempted by sin.

Not because I questioned God, but because of the way I asked, and my anger towards God.

I was fueled with ignorance and anger towards God for allowing elephants to be hurt and abused.

I could not understand why the God I serve who loves me so dearly was allowing such bad things to happen, as they are not human beings.

I became even angrier when I had no response, then an answer came.

This is a test. – God, my God.

It was time to soul search.

I cried some more, wept actually.

Well,

I received my answer

– it wasn’t good enough for me.

So, I became more angry, livid, sending in complaints and animal cruelty petitions to end this crisis.

I cried.

More, and more, my mother realized that after I vented to her, I needed time.

A few minutes later, filled with hurt and hatred for abusers in my heart – I sobbed.

I crawled into my mother’s arms like a baby.

She read to me a passage that my spirit craved, from where and what was said?

– I have no idea, no remembrance of what happened other than I heard God, again:

This is a test. – God, Our God.

He said it so clearly that my heart pierced in remembering that

HE IS GOD. THE ALMIGHTY, THE ALL POWERFUL.

I felt joy, yet sorrow as I condemned my father of the doings that only sin can produce, not The Holy One.

He said to me, to my spirit as well: Free will.

My heart almost sank.

Wow, want an Almighty God he truly is.

I said: I’m sorry, God.

Now, I asked for forgiveness:

Please forgive me,

Father, forever questioning your love for me, your son’s feelings, and the earth’s treasures: animals.

As you are the Almighty, Maker of Heaven and Earth, Alpha and Omega.

I love you, Father.

My Dad.

My Abba.

My Maker.

I love you, and please forgive me as I know you have already done so.

THANK YOU for your acceptance of the imperfect me.

Forever yours,

Tiara, Your daughter

~ Words to God. ♡

A day, a lifetime, an hour.

Life takes time, but most importantly lifetimes take you.

Be grateful for all of the times in your life when you’ve felt down, because now you know what being lifted up by God feels like.

I love you.

God loves you,

and remember, that “it” in your life will take time.

Xo,

– Tiara, words from God. ♡